Showing posts from April, 2017

Bleh- a vent post

This week has been difficult, not because of outside forces, but because my mind has constructed a barrier. Everything is fine. But it isn't. I am simultaneously anxious and oh so weary, an odd but powerful combination. I have resigned myself to this constant looming dread. I am too tired to do anything, but I must or all will fail. So much depends on simple will power. I have none. So much depends on unwavering confidence. That too has fled. When I express my fears I am told I have no need to worry. I know that. I know I am capable. But the self-doubt creeps in and twists itself around my heart and suddenly my faith is lost and I can't breathe. It makes me sick.

Queen Amisi step by step


They said you suck


Slightly less blarg

Well, it's morning (almost noon) and I'm still above snakes so i suppose that's good. Took the day off which I normally hate doing but cold medicine is hindering my brain functioning


I'm sick as fuck right now and I can't sleep and my face hurts. I tried nyquil and theraflu and melatonin and eating spoonfuls of honey. Symptoms have not lessened. This is how I die. Fare thee well.